holding onto nothing.

tonight we decided to step back into reality,

in a warped sort of way.

coming back to new paltz,

reality. ha.

although,

it is better we're here now,

so tomorrow i don't have to worry about driving,

just work.

the past few days has made me realize a bunch of things,

so i guess it's good to take a step back from time to time.

i'm glad i have the friends that i do,

but more so, 

i'm glad that the close ones are who they are.

& i think that this weird feeling i have,

this sense that i can maybe fix people, or something,

i think it's best to try and let that subside with certain people.

i'm not a miracle worker,

and some people don't want to change.

and i am not the answer that they're looking for.

they're not looking for me.

but does that mean stop searching?

i need to learn to not try and mend what's not mine to fix.

i don't get people, i don't get life.

and you,

you're the most ridiculous person i've ever met.

and you won't let me go.

i don't understand this word-strung noose around my neck,

or why you keep pulling tighter and tighter.

but please, it's time to let go.