Lifenotes v. III.

now i'm receiving supreme opposition,

to a dream that seemed so pure.

they're closing in on my position,

because now everyone's wanting more.

it's crazy how fast these days are passing,

it seems like life is just a series of

'holy shit, i can't believe its already...'

and although i seem to be giving in,

i'm trying to hold on to the moment.

but its hard to hold on,

when i keep putting things off.

i think maybe tomorrow will be the day.

i hope so.

time to grow a pair and make the move

that i've been waiting on for months.

i'm just a lonely child

whose lost in the park,

trying to find a familiar face.

i saw a lot of people that i love this weekend,

it felt good.

but i think that i need to slow things down,

spread things out.

too much going on at once,

and too little going on in between.

          and in all my travels

     you're the best i've seen.

     that sparkle in your eye,

     is the light to my dream.

    ain't no need to dress up,

     youre a goddess in jeans.

                   ^newest chorus.

it took a strange collection of events,

to teach me who i am,

and why i do some of the things i do.

this whole time,

i've just been working on myself.

construction on the foreman.

i'm just trying to be who everyone wants me to be,

without forgetting who i want to be,

and remembering what i've learned thus far along the way.

i hope i'm not screwing things up too bad.

"...i can't do everything,

             but i'd do anything for you..."

'Romeo & Juliet' by the Dire Straits

paints the picture of the love i want to live.

and with that,

i'm throwing in the towel for the evening.

i have the new thievery corporation album

to help me fall asleep tonight,

and some important things to wake up to in the morning.

fingers crossed for the next best day of my life.

just keep fluttering your eyelashes,

& i won't leave your side.