maybe i'm not the one that needs to be postponed.

Day One:
Mission Accomplished.

I have to say I am amazed
with the way last night turned out.
better than anything I could have imagined.
all of my dreams came true,
except for you.
well this time,
i decided not to settle.

i think that maybe this is just the way
that things are supposed to be for right now.
everybodys world is fucking upside down,
i guess i'm just the only one blind enough to see it.
nothing makes sense,
theres no such thing as romance,
not like this.
and all that i wanted,
was just to give you what you needed.
i would give you the world if i could,
but all i have are these bony hands,
and a heart too heavy to lift.
because of you.
i can't settle this time.

i am writing this from your bedroom,
the place where you rest your head,
but i feel like i am dying,
whenever i catch a glance at that bed.
because your door is big and heavy,
it holds all our anger in,
and your mirror doesn't welcome,
even the purest that come in.
this room is confused,
the walls twisted and used,
even the dresser stinks of despair.
and the ceiling falls down,
spinning your pictures around,
leaving us lifeless on the ground.


let the world come to you,
put it out into the universe,
and let it come back to you.


im in love with you.
i always have been.
but maybe i'm just crazy.