beat generator.

oh no my dear,

i fear i'm giving you,

the wrong idea.

so, i've been doing more and more

to further those 'dreams' that I've been having.

we haven't been painting as much as i'd like,

but hopefully that'll pick up soon.

i'm also demo-ing all the professional DJ software i can find,

so that hopefully i can get that going again too.

and as the days pass by,

i have few designs to show for it,

but i think i'm building foundations,

so at least i think i'm on the right path.

it's all about learning how to play the different games.

i think i'm actually over her,

which is strange because recently i've been seeing her more than usual.

it's more habit than anything else,

i think.

it's true that i adore her,

but the way that i've been treated,

and the just all around lack of effort on her part,

has me at my last end.

honestly, if it came down to it,

and she came to me and asked for my hand right now,

i can't truly say that i would definitely give it to her.

i'm nobody's 2nd best.

i don't play the b-list spot.

and i am seriously finished with waiting around.

"i wish i was a little bit taller, i wish i was a baller,

i wish i had a girl who looked good, i would call her.

i wish i had a rabbit in a hat, and a bat, and a '64 impala."

the 'i wish' cover, by the Secret Handshake,

on Punk Goes Crunk is dank. check it out.

it's been a slow day.

shaping up to be a slow night,

but hopefully i'll see someone special.

i believe tonight is our night...